Y Cre8te?
"G-checkin'" or questioning someone's heat index as it's known, calls into account a person's heart pertaining to matter or situation. Essentially, it is a test of character. Where's your grit? Where and on what do you stand? Where's your dedication? When younger, I was G-checked or pressed a few times. There were moments I shrank back, but there were moments where I rose to the occasion and responded. Now as a grown man, scenarios and adversaries may have changed, but in this life, the G-checkin' experience will always be there despite your age or social circles.
Although I have a production company, I still work on projects outside of Y Cre8te Films?. This week, I was scheduled to work on a narrative project as a focus puller. A lot went into me being on set! Communication with production, contract review, (Fellow freelancers, never enter into a project without a contract. Please make sure you protect yourself, your likeness and livelihood!) mental and physical preparation, and a setback - I injured my lower back! The cause? A myriad of things: working out (I do stretch!), lack of rest/sleep, sitting work at my desk (I sat wrong ONE DAY... one day! 😥) and stress. Laid up and unable to be on set, I rested, prayed, laughed and reflected. Finally back on set of the film doing what I love, I found myself focused on other things. I was tired, having worked my regular position in education in between the two days I was on set; the pain in my back began to re-surface. Insecurity whispered. My mind wondered. I did my best! Martini shot was called, applause were made when the director announced I was wrapped. Excited to be done and get home to rest my body, I started reflecting during my commute on the day and what I could have done better; where I could have been more present. I pondered and prayed more, concluding that not only are there layers and levels to the filmmaking process, but there are dimensions! The day fresh in my mind, I took my considerations into the shower, realizing that I have allowed internal and external forces to effect my passion for and commitment to the craft of filmmaking. Am I really about this life of visual storytelling? Am I built for this? Questions not of self-doubt but checking to see where I'm at. Where is my thermostat set at? Am I willing to pay the price and put in the work? I reference one of the ADs from the movie. Homie worked Monday to Thursday, coming to set after work and performing AD duties; was on set yesterday and today! Challenged and inspired - check!
Situations, circumstances and journeys may be different than that of your associates, but one's heart and dedication must always be in the equation. Despite the pretty picture painted by culture, filmmaking is not for the faint of heart, but for the stout-hearted, those who can endure and adapt.